Monday, 29 October 2012

Fione Rettenberger • M00388626 • Critical Reflection


In my first blog of this module (Appendix A) I started comparing the journey we are taking in this BAPP course to a Soyuz-mission of the late 50s. Whilst in Module one we were shown what bits we need and how to assemble our own private spacecraft, in this part of the course we were able to take our first test-flights in the the vast universe work-place study has to offer.

Developing lines of Professional Inquiry

In order to develop my professional line of inquiry, I started off by having a brainstorm and producing a mind-map on where I was then and making it clear to myself, where I would like to go. (Appendix B)
Thinking about the future inevitably leads me down the road of the past, so this is also the time I started reading “Apollo´s Angels” by Jennifer Homans a fine piece of literature about the history of ballet. In this book I found many references to where ballet is embedded into the story, and society of the time. (Appendix C)
Like on any long journey it is important to take a great deal of reading material with you, so I read as varied and as much as I could in the limited time available to me. Having identified a heightened interest for the social sciences I looked for literature on the sociology of dance, sociology of the body, neurocognition of dance (Appendix D) and other various cultural themes surrounding dance.
At the same time I engaged the people around me in conversations about my ideas, most notably one of the ballet masters from work and the managing director of the Hessen State Theatre. Because I also took my fledging ideas away from my community of practice the discussions I had were fruitful and later on would lead me to my line of inquiry.
During the same time I also took an important trip. Back to my own roots to my alma mater. Travelling always has the amazing effect on me, that it clears my head and gives me fresh ideas and impulses to think about. Travelling back to where I essentially came from as a professional and even more so, being fortunate enough to meet some of the most important teachers I had and discussing my thoughts and studies with them finally also lead me to the conclusion of this part. I knew I wanted to discover more about the social aspects of dance, delve into the realms of the social habitus or public spheres of dancers.

Professional Ethics

As my Soyuz capsule was taking flight I took a look around the universe of ethics. A vast area to cover I started by identifying my own professional work ethics. (Appendix E)
With the “Anlage zum NV- Solo Vertrag” (Appendix F) being the legal basis of the contract I have signed as a soloist dancer with the Hessen State Theatre I also revised my professional ethics.
This in turn led me to think about the ethics of my own professional inquiry. I think the most important thing I ought to bear in mind, when conducting interviews and surveys are the addressed persons' rights, especially when dealing with such delicate matters, as the end of the much loved career in dance or concerning a person's social status. I also noticed in composing my pilot survey and conducting a pilot interview, that how the questions asked are set is highly important.

It was also around about that time, that my little spacecraft passed by some important items of literature, that would in the end lead me to the universe I have decided to further explore in my professional inquiry. (Appendix G)
Through a radio-programme I was led to the “Deutscher Kulturrat” (Appendix H) - the German Federal Cultural Foundation, providing me with ample information on the situation of dance in Germany and on the social habits of artists. (Appendix I)
Internet research (Appendix J) also led me to the “Tanzplan Deutschland” (Appendix K) , an initiative of the German Federal Cultural Foundation lasting from 2005 to 2010, that was equipped with 12.5million € to act as a catalyst for the German Dance scene to promote more recognition and equal value for the art form in public perception. Amongst many other things it set up the “Transition Centre Dance”. (Appendix L)
Reading, thinking and discussing transition with my peers (actually I was blow-drying my hair) led me to the universe of work-based research that I want to further explore, as I feel it is a subject still very much in its infant stage here in Germany and one plus-point is, I can talk to almost every dancer I know.

Tools of Professional Inquiry

So although I started feeling a little less like Laika the dog in the myriad of my ideas I still need to channel my research in order for it not to get out of hand.
Once I had heard the penny drop it was easy for me to go looking for the appropriate literature concerning the subject of transition. (Appendix M)
In reading I found many questions to ask, which I utilized in my pilot interview and in composing my pilot-survey. I also used a TV programme on a ballet school class from Vienna (Appendix N) as my observation.

Although it seems as though I have been on an extremely lonely journey, I have enjoyed the company of strangers in some special interest groups on linked-in and also was actively engaged with the blogging community, where I was able to receive support in moments of despair.
Discussions with my tutor, that made me feel like I was reporting back to Huston Space Center were also helpful and guided the little cosmonaut in me back on track.
I look forward to the upcoming research and my big mission into the universe of dance transition in Germany.

reporting to you live from Heathrow airport ((O;

After my last blog was lost in the vast universe of the internet (screw Blogger...thank you very much!!), it has taken some time for me to pluck up enough courage to trust in this programme again.
With the first third of the module drawing to an end, I must admit that I needed the time I have lately taken to get back on track and focused, as I was rather feeling, like I was standing at the wrong suitcase-returns belt at Heathrow airport...waiting for my assignment ideas to come out at belt 3a, whilst my suitcase of plausible ideas was going round in circles on belt 2a.....
That´s ok...some talks to Paula and people around me, have made me turn my head and run towards my suitcase with gaping arms ((O;
I have just gotten off the phone with Maja Langsdorff, a very respectable lady, who herself was a dancer and was abruptly forced to stop due to a road- accident. In 2005 she published a book called "Ballet- and then?" (in German) that is having quite an influence on my assignment.
Now in her 50s her transition lies many years behind and it is refreshing to be able to talk to someone who has safely landed in a "non dancer life"many years ago and has the calm and the virtue to openly discuss, the problems dancers face in many different ways.
I have also had some vital conversations with a friend and former colleague of mine, who has just stopped dancing due to a neck injury and his girlfriend, who is at times finding it hard to cope with the situation of her partner´s adjusting and search of a new life.
This has also made me realise, who I am really writing the artefact for. Not only do I want to cater for dancers (who tend to disclose information they have found), but also for their close friends and relatives, who want to support them in their transition process. I think I will find another form of audience in the public, that comes into the theatre. Recently we have had a fair amount of audience come watch rehearsals in the studio. One question I have always observed is, that people are actually interested, how long dancers can dance and what they do afterwards and how! I think if I create a comprehensive artefact in form of a booklet, I can get a dialogue going between the consumer and the producer of this art form.
In all my thoughts I have also re-avaluated the necessity and thus justice that needs to be given to dance. Dance in Germany is part of our cultural heritage. It is a heritage, that is frequently being cut and admonished, because people cannot be bothered to challenge themselves to try to understand, what a primal form of their communication could mean to them? Because people do not want to search for the aspects of their emotions, that can be touched by dance?
I think it is important for me to take this into consideration, as it demands a fair amount of tax money for dancers to be educated, theatres to be kept up and dancers to be supported in transition at the end of their career (my topic), as I am rooting for the upkeep and support of dance and its practitioners.

As far as other organisational things are concerned- as I wrote about in my last blog (the one that evaporated) I have been getting up at 7am in order to get some work done before heading out to work myself- mainly reading and thus don´t have to worry about that during the day or can relax a bit more in the evening.
Here´s an impression of how lovely those mornings can be!!...followed by an impression of my desk- work in progress, a quiet moment I found to read in the park between rehearsals and an excellent view of the place I work at...!




Last week however I needed to give way to irregular working hours due to the upcoming premiere, so I was forced to do less work towards the final assignment.

As for the social media issue- I have been in touch with Katharina over Facebook. Right now we are looking for a way to meet each other, as we don´t live to far away from each other in order to liven things up a little. I am also noticing, that I am not cut- out for long term long distance study, as I need people around me, that I can have an active exchange with in order to enhance my learning process.
Although I´ve only been commenting on the odd blog I must at this point say, that I am always really inspired by Adesola´s blog entries. Not only do they challenge me to go that extra bit, but they also talk about dance from a metaphysical point of view, which is something I find very appealing.
In her last entry she comments on blogging as a form of communication- not only with the people on the BAPP programme, but also with the rest of the world! And it is true- especially now, as I am inviting people to interviews I quite frequently refer them to my blog, so they can get a quick idea on what I am thinking about.

So just to briefly review my learning experience on this module so far- I started off extremely motivated and charged right in. As I started thinking more and more about my assignment I got caught up with the "centipede problem"- by thinking too much about which leg to put forward first I could no longer decide, which one of the 100 to use first and was therefore stuck. Taking a deep breath and a short pause has provided me with the ability to see the right suitcase and I am now fully immersed in my assignment topic.

What more is there to say right now?? I hope no one is too cold out there...good journey y´all!! ((O;
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